Saturday, June 30, 2007

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Dad laying in hospital

Thursday June 7, 2007

Dad's condition had not changed much and he still can't lift his limbs. This we can understand that he had lost his appetite much before his admission when the sugar level had taken over his body system. His body weight had taken a dive and what we see of him previously is now like a layer of flesh covering the bones.

He had also started hallucinating and not knowing where he is. Saying this, his memory was still super sharp as he remembers utility bills which is due!

He had constantly asked mum about time and day which old folks would like to avoid answering especially from someone who is ill. This is a taboo of the old folks which whether superstitious or not, we maintained what our ancestors believe.

The salt drips was being replaced quickly and his right elbow had now swelled due to the numerous jabs he was given for blood specimen and medication. As any diabetic patient, wounds are difficult to heal. There are no alternatives....

Elder brother stayed overnight when the eldest had chicken out with excuses which was totally unacceptable. This is what an unfaithful son's "love" to a father!! Shocking but true.

It wasn't easy when elder brother had to drive 45 mins to work and had stayed overnight to look after ailing father in the hospital. Anyway, news of dad getting better removes the anxiety slightly but he remained hospitalised. I respected my elder brother since young and will remain with such responsible actions.

Dad

Wednesday June 6, 2007

Dad's diabetic condition had worsen with uncontrollable urinating. He could not lift his ownself to walk or seat which points that his sugar levels had taken over his able body. Quick thinking mum summoned assistance for him to be taken to the hospital instead of waiting for his scheduled doctor's appointment on Friday.

He was immediately taken in an ambulance to the hospital in a semi-conscious state before being warded for observation.

The news had reached me very early in the morning and was not the kind of news which anyone would love to listen as a day starter but I have to face reality that all humans would have to face the stark actuality of life.

He has been fighting his diabetic complications for years and I truly belief that he will be what he is, as a fighter, to do whatever he can to be around with love ones for many years more. He has proven this in 1985 when he was admitted in a semi-coma state also due to his diabetes problem.

Waiting for updated news of his condition from a location far away is something which is unpleasant and edgy. How can someone focus on working when that special someone whom had gave me a chance to live in this world is bed ridden in hospital and fighting for his life?

He is a father for he may be wrong with some actions within the family but he remained my paternal father whom had slog his guts out when he was younger to ensure there is food, clothing and shelter for the family. Memories of him kept flashing in my mind constantly for the whole day recognising the agony he had gone through as a sole breadwinner of the family.